So much more glorious than before
So much more devious than you could know
The inside of my heart has become a spiraling black hole,
Sucking the life out of me from within
I only hate myself for never letting go
For never saying goodbye to you
For clinging to a false hope
One that i knew would fuck me over in the end
Now the time has come to give it all up again
Fuck this façade, it's shat on me from the start
And as much as i hate you now,
I can only blame myself!
But isn't it paradoxical,
How i spit my rage onto thee?
Knowing full well deep inside of my being
That i still love you all the same
Was it truly just a game to you?
Toying with my heart for a laugh?
How could you do what've done to my face today?
I've scarred it before, but you've spat on my name!
I sit here now, breathing spears, razors and spikes!
I want to watch my skin peel,
And i hope you'd enjoy the show!
Sure, i may blame myself, but once again, it's all your fucking fault!
Now, listen here, you bitch!
What's left over is nothing but fragments from a shattered life
Like stained glass, they each tell a story
Of one who gave it all up solely to be with you!
Nevermore shall i wake from this spectral gaze
Forever to walk in cold melancholy and sombre hate
But remember one thing, my sweet child
Darkness comforts me, as did your embrace
You: the liar
Me: the fool
We: the couple
Fucked up... obscured!
Your skin: so sweet.
Your body: i need!
To fuck you is...
A pleasure... indeed!
This lust.
This longing.
This pain: i feel...
These scars will take forever to heal..
In darkness: shrouded.
In light: revealed;
In life: agony
In love and death: i feel real.
