Oh my god! My god this can't be happening! God tell me, tell me this isn't real! I can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally happening. I cannot for a single second stand the way i feel. I always knew. I always saw it coming. Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear. I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, I never wanted to cease to exist, just disappear Fear memories are all that lie ahead Never have i felt so lost Memories dull my senses Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead Never have i felt so dead Once felt so warm, no i'm freezing I am the once embraced abandoned one I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; No relief was mine, i was burnt, by the sun