As time grows So does our distance The memories seem to fade With each passing second A dove flies by my window now and then I watch in wonder as it flies away again Leaving the memories to return to me All though I reach I cannot grasp For fear holds me back Love steers me near But I throw myself away I run to her than turn my back and run away When she comes near I hold my heart in my tightly closed hands Wanting and wishing that I could let it go For her to take control But once again I find myself back And regret returns And I know I cannot take back this mistake I made She is my angel in my nightmare Haunting me is this choice I made The choice I make over and over again I threw myself away