She finally understood it the sadness of her life the weight of her emotion the gravity of light she looked into the back of her mind to see where she had been and all she saw was the secret and she could not look in all those years of waiting all those years of trying too hard all those years of failing pushed her down too far she wearies of the geographies that tell her who she is she chokes on her philosophies and all that she has been when she finally put her foot down she put her fears down too she left them by the back door and through the night she flew away from her emotions away from tricks of time away from cruel devotions she left them all behind it was the night of her insistence it was the day she found her will it was the dream she'd always harboured and harboured still it was the night of her configuration all the pieces finally there and in that light of transformation she.... finally understood it the sadness of her life the weight of her emotion the gravity of light she looked beyond the back of her mind to see where she had been and there she saw the secret and now she looked in