healing stitches when i just want to lay in my bed. and be comforted by the delicate touch of insomnia. conjoined with this cancer. we are one. i beg the son to ease this. i bear the scars of this. but i will suffer this. to be closer to you. this test. artificial lights shine on me. before i breathe anesthesia. in my room, the lady in the radiator sings me songs i ask her, "if you sing to me, will you become human?" answers escape through your fingertips. as you shut the door behind you. now we can live.