Before I was even ready my life was changing before my eyes in a town where I was supported now ghosted by my single cry I wish things could be different but that won't change the way things are feeling bad for myself I know wont get me very far I'm not willing to except this forced feeling I'm not ready to be free this is not what I want this is not what I want this is not what I want I don't feel all that scared and my spitefulness can fade so fast I guess this will be the last chapter in the book of my past if I could get away believe me I'd be the first to know so much holding me back but I don't want anyone to know I'm not willing to except this forced feeling I'm not ready to be free this is not what I want this is not what I want this is not what I want