Infected by life

Birth 
Life 
Never an option 
Death 
Decay 
Forever chosen 
The pain 
A neverhealing wound end now 
This precious life was always a lie 
So many reasons why 
Like a cancer beyond control 
Like a thorn in my eye 
I pray, I call for death 
But my lips are sealed 
And my hands are tied 
With chains to the ground 
Am I dead now?