A five minutes drone note covered the time
That I had to spend alone from your house to mine
I’m stuck between feelings, and the worst part is that
I can understand ‘em both, like I opened my head split
Fuck, how can I pretend I don’t care?
I’m a little dead ostrich when I’m missing your hand through my hair
Always said being loved back kills art
I would leave this mic to rust if that would give me your heart
The- the weight of the morning is the shriek of the past
And the depth of the sinkhole that you left in my chest
(I’m always afraid) time flies as we rot in this hug, you should find
(A better way to ignore me) starting with this
Don’t listen to this track, it’s too sad
To see you stop the party ‘cause I’m fucking dead, it’s okay
I’m koi-no-yokan kinda fucked from the start
Still I’m afraid you’ll find a way to ignore me
I need you like a beacon needs the water
You’re muffled in my sweater, teary eyed
Please listen to the fishes in your stomach
‘Cause these haphazard words are biased as fuck, girl
I want you mine
Nothing is safe, nothing remains the same
But I would stare into your eyes forever and I’m the one to blame
The anvils on my back are the tears from your eyes
Don’t underestimate my honesty or you’ll be surprised
(I’m always afraid)
I’m not denying reality, or putting up fights
I just can’t promise I’ll change for myself, and that’s why
You have no clue how I felt that night, you’re even
Prettier under the video rental store’s bright light
(I can’t believe you’re here)
I need you like spring blooming needs the thaw and
I’m so deceived by the shape of your lips
(I can’t believe you’re here)
Please come and fill the chasm in my stomach
I’m tired of gauging what you feel and think
I wanna end this war
I’m wary of it all
I’m waiting but it’s hard
Will you be here or not? Will you be here or not?
I wanna end this war (end this war)
I’m wary of it all
I’m waiting but it’s hard (end this war)
Will you be here or not?
I’m jealous, stubborn and worn
Do I need more
Time?
Time
Do I need more time?
Guess now we have to make up our mind
Either we try to live together, or I’ll kiss you for the last time
Shit, if this is what I’m supposed to deal with
Just fucking kill me already, this is a life I won’t live
(I’m always afraid)
Please find a way to ignore me, oh this song is so smart
Blending 80s electronic with an oli-sykes-style part
(I'm always afraid)
So sit tight, that was just a build-up
This is where I’m gonna leave you, and then the real song starts
