These hands that are cold Know just how I feel No other can show you the place I’m living in A place you’ve never been to Not too long ago I figured it out All the sleepless nights Silent thoughts screaming loud I think I’m ready now So I’ve said my goodbye to the faking ‘Cause I spent too much time In a life that ain’t mine All the years that I’ve wanted to say it ‘Cause it’s clear in my mind Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys ‘Cause they’re always somewhere in my head Used to never really understand it Now I’m never hiding from myself Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys Here’s to all the years that I regret Used to never really understand it Now I’m never hiding from myself Far too long in the dark And silenced by the crowd Now I raise up a flag to contrast all the doubt The colours that I’m proud of Someday when I grow old I’ll tell my younger self That I’d rather be real Than leave my life on a shelf And be somebody else So I’ve said my goodbye to the faking ‘Cause I spent too much time In a life that ain’t mine All the years that I’ve wanted to say it ‘Cause it’s clear in my mind Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys ‘Cause they’re always somewhere in my head Used to never really understand it Now I’m never hiding from myself Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys Here’s to all the years that I regret Used to never really understand it Now I’m never hiding from myself Boys, boys, boys, boys, boys Boys, boys, boys, boys I’ll be loving boys, I’ll be loving boys Wish there was someone to tell me In my darker times There’s nothing to be ashamed of And you’ll be fine