Disused Heart

my suspicion becomes true
and my veins are full of frozen blood 
the lies I`ve scattered hurt me now

yesterday I`ve lost my will
cause my smile is just facade
I`m covered in thoughts of me
thoughts of now

I hope all of you can forgive my acts 
and I die well deserved
with a bandaged heart
my bandaged heart
and I die well deserved

the wounds are to fresh 
to talk to someone
who enjoys my confidence 
absorbed in self pity
I close my eyes day after day