Monday I wake up with disgust in my hair Could not forgive myself Another moment spent in the bed Monday The mirror always disappoints I pinch my skin back Till I see the joints Today I'm feeling like I live on a ledge At any moment I just know I'm gonna fall off the edge They say hang on I promise them I will But I don't know for how long Wait for a minute Why do I spend the sole of my day Looking for any way to waste away The pain is in the empty time Just twiddling my thumbs And hoping for the words to rhyme Today I couldn't stand to be all alone I'm sick of hearing My voice on the telephone A thousand roads to injury Most of them so smooth It doesn't feel like they're hurting me Oh I'm still trying To leave the high of violence behind I wait for relief But the illness is my mind Why should I wait? I'm already too late Why should I wait? Not knowing what the future will bring Is always wrecking my day I guess I'll drown my fear and seal my fate A haze of quitting Easier to do it than it is to just sit here and wait