I don't know why, I feel this way It's like I can't control myself ANYMORE I fear for my life, I'm tired of fighting off these feelings I have, I feel like shit Have I ever told you, I fucking hate myself? And have I ever told you, I don't give a fuck About myself I am a curse, I am a curse I've lived and made mistakes, I've died and had regrets So is there only one way out? I've lived and made mistakes, I've died and had regrets So is there only one way out? I'll put myself to sleep When I sleep, I dream of what I can't have And when I wake up, I am torn And when I wake up, I am nothing I am self loathing