Tom: Am
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[Verse]
C
I haven't felt this low in a long time
Am
I haven't seen sunlight for 5 days
G
And now the inside of my mouth's a mess
Just like the inside of my head
F
I know I shouldn't have dropped by tonight
C
But I just didn't know who else I could talk to
Am
And December never seems to listen
Bm C
When I kindly ask for it to leave
Am
All of this uncertainty and these unfinished bus rides
F G C
Are breaking me like you wouldn't believe
[Chorus]
G
So I just sit here grinding my teeth
F C G
And think about that beautiful smile that's stuck in my head, I know she doesn't exist
C F
All she ever seems to want to do is talk to me at great length about our dead parents
Am
So I get up, get out and start walking
F C
And try to think of ways to make winter go
Am F Am
And as I slipped and fell on black ice, I felt no urgency to get back up
Dm Am G F
Sometimes it just doesn't pay to get uh-uh-up
G
Just like most mornings
C
Lay awake and think about the past
A stairwell full of dirty needles and broken glass
F Am
Nights spent on cold wooden floors scratching scabies
F G F# F G
7 years on, fingers still crossed, hoping that maybe
[Bridge]
C
Someday I'll sober up, and I won't be a joke
Am
And I'll stop smoking half your cigarette before realizing I don't smoke
Em
And I'll stop giving in to vices when I feel like life's a lost cause
F
And I'll stop going to bed with a splitting headache then waking up with a sore jaw
C
And I'll appreciate the small amount of time that you decided to spend with me
Am
Instead of learning to hate you so that I can get this over with quickly
Em
And I'll stop checking for bad news about planes flying out of Scotland
F
In case they've crashed into the ocean with my family members on them
[Outro]
C G
But until that day, I know I'll always be
F F/E F C
Your pair of broken headphones on your loneliest ride home
G F
And you'll always be that song about a fresh start
C
For which I can't seem to write the ending
