It's not all just black and white anymore there's that ugly shade of grey Sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart and a soul Because there's no risk in not hurting at all Maybe then my eyes wouldn't grow so old I think its just my nature to realize the evil in everything and everyone I envy those who sing a song much more sincere than mine No one will ever give a shit about a kid with fear in his heart and hope in his eyes I guess that's how it is life isn't a fairy tail, and if it were, I'd fuck it up I'm running backwards in a race I cannot win I lost my conscience long ago I'm in this shit for myself I've found that a life worth living is one where everyone else is content and you're fucking miserable So take your best shot And then fail because from the start you're not good enough