a clustered mind is not a beneficial one 
i am being choked mentally 
thoughts flow through my head like a verbose raging river 
rambling four word phrases, jumping from noun to noun 
i yearn to live for a person that can make me feel like pious 
but instead i am shattered by irreverence 
i want someone who allows themselves to live without margins, to be bereaved 
nights turn into days and i can only remember my dreams 
they seems existent, creating the smell of perfume 
the fumes turn into a plague overbearing my senses 
with some imaginary woman who fucks me from hello 
when i open my eyes i see a reflection of myself lost and motionless