Cavil

i tested your patience without you even knowing 
so i continued to throw words around carelessly 
i knew how to get you off 
certain words evoked this beast from you 
it was your careless eyes that strayed away 
which brought forth your true feelings 
now tell me of the nights when you pushed my patience 
the thrusts of hormonal guilt 
i suffer here 
your skin holds the image of his face 
and your hair smells of compulsive lust 
now tell me, was it worth it?