Could I disappear with the day? I am left underwhelmed by the pavements whisper 'Today is not your day' A thought for an instant, a reflection of this empty page For a second, for forever Distracted by the horizon. I am told that it s natural I again am left underwhelmed. I feel much older though not wiser I try so hard to be good I know I promised more than this but I feel it rising through my skin Overwhelming It remembers my name You need to stop this, stop pretending Participate, just wake up and participate I have betrayed myself again I try so hard to escape my evil thoughts Consume me Leave me here I am everything I hate I am empty skies How could you? Let go?