So many times,fucked up been stuck 
too many lies to keep locked up 
i've made these mistakes for that i'll pay 
you wait and see 
self destruction seems to be the only way 

Chorus- 

the truth are lies in me 
anger leads misery 

I'll try so hard to change from day to day 
falling back is all i know 
this book is broken upon, 
the time of death is chosen 
falling down,no turning back now 
I've tried so hard through the years, 
I've tried so hard but only failed 
feels like im always stuck in here, 
my mind this hell 
i feel its time to make a change 
this time we'll see 
i say to you 
dont hold your breath 
you will regret 
i've made an attempt, 
for that i should make a change 
self destruction lies 
i know what you want from me, 
i cannot be what you want