The Ambassador

Thug Joint

The Ambassador


[Chorus] 
I used to be a thug but now I'm a believer 
I used to be a thug I know how it feels 
I used to be a thug but now a believer 
No more thug and no more deals 

[Verse 1] 
Ok doc my occupation was thuggin' 
The whole nine, I mean the robbin' the dealin' the muggin' 
The Clubin' the premarital lovin' 
The type to put one in the oven but I wasn't tryin' to be the husband 
Sin was Lord and I always obeyed the Master 
It told me "sell drugs" just to get the paper faster 
Let me go to church but would let me imitate the pastor 
It only let me imitate my favorite rapper 
So the deal was I grew up doin' the ill stuff 
Would fight the cops 'til they threw on the steal cuffs 
Go in do my bid like the mack 
When it was done say, "cool out kids---I'll be back." 
But lately there's been some friction 
I've been feeling sort of sick from this heart condition 
It's an unusual affliction, when I do wrong that's when it kicks in 
(From your description, you know it sounds like conviction) 
I knew something was going wrong when I bumped in 
To a kid so soft I thought his name should be Pumpkin 
Recognizing he was a weaker type of creature 
I decided to take his beeper and his sneakers 
You could tell for this kid a fight was a rare sport 
Cause with ease I held him up like flights at an airport 
He pleaded, "Don't take my beeper, I need it 
And, "...not my sneaks, let me keep my brand new Adidas 
That's when signs of the sickness manifested 
My mind said, "Be nice and do what the man suggested." 
I broke down like a fraction 
Gave him back what I took away like subtraction 
I'm puzzled and I'm struggling through this distraction 
The reciprocal of my typical reaction---dag blast him! 
I made tracks and then a flash back happened 
That's when the rugged me kicked back in 

[Repeat Chorus] 

Now last week I was in my dad's black jeep 
Rollin' mad deep with mad peeps smashed in the back seat 
We took a back street, a Pontiac tried to pass me 
I sped up and made him crash by the trash heap 
The accident was nasty if you ask me 
I would have laughed but then it happened again---the sickness harassed me 
Oh no, not again. I had hurt a lot of men 
But never felt bad before even when I shot a friend 
For ease I thought I should step to the weed spot 
Cause I was loosing my cool like melted freeze pops 
My knees knocked as my conscience eaves dropped, found a weak spot 
And said, "You sin too much, please stop!" 
Peep the situation as it gets deeper 
I started getting second thoughts about getting' the reefer 
But what scared me was the internal reasoning 
It was, "God sees you man, and your not pleasing Him" 
This was hard to swallow like food with out seasonin' 
Me believe in Him, I rather not breath again 
Before receivin' Him 
You would see a turtle beat a rabbit and a cheetah in a 100m's sprint 
That's all that was the last straw I was ready to blast off 
To a place I didn't have enough cash for 
But with the swiftness, the sickness turned up the pitch 
And with the quickness I felt it clutch me like a stick shift 

[Repeat Chorus] 

Yea you have no idea just how absurd it is 
But check the word of this witness, now get this---I heard of this 
Crew that could rip rhymes murderously, but I heard it would be 
Christian, I thought absurd as can be 
And churches to me can make the hard rocks feel nervous 
But I went because I heard this would be an outdoor service 
I got there and saw mad youth noddin' to mad truth 
Rockin' mad hats and suits and not plaid suits 
As truth crashed through my heart ached like a bad tooth 
This hard rock got softer than brown spots on bad fruit 
I came with a heart stone like a statue then the rap group 
Got under my skin like a tattoo 
They rapped about a man diein' and I was cryin' 
They said He died so I could be saved like Private Ryan 
We all could see zoomorphically He's a lion 
Coming to rule from Zion with a scepter of iron 
Trying to hold back tears that wanted to flow jack 
Couldn't control that, it felt like my soul cracked 
In half and Jesus started lookin' much bigger 
than drugs or liquor or thugs pullin' a trigger 
And it was a first that I ever felt so cursed next to One so perfect 
My soul thirsted to worship 
Scufflin', tustlin', my feathers, He ruffled them 
I tried to duck Him and tried to get back to my hustlin' 
I must have been affected more than I could have imagined 
Cause that's been all I can think about since it happened 

[Repeat Chorus to fade]