i feel so excluded. all this time i knew this wouldn't be the way that i had dreamed. or so it seems. there's no place for me. i don't belong with you or them. but still i try to force a smile. meanwhile i'm not ok. i wish i could find someone who's shape could carry me inside. go for a ride. smoke stained walls hold good intentions all the while no mention of the way i wanted us to be. you and me. i guess another bridge is burned. but i know you only smile when my back is turned. staring at the phone won't make it ring and though i know your number like my name, i don't think i can do it. if you were here i'd tell you everything. i'd never say a word. it doesn't matter anyway. anymore. i guess another bridge is burned. but i know you only smile when my back is turned. so now i know. i guess another bridge is burned. but i know you only smile when my back is turned...