When the truth is too painful and there is no rise to come There is nothing that you can leave behind or try to change in your life For so long I have paid for the mistakes I have made I don’t wait for forgiveness just take away my pain I'm so sick of pretending that everything is fine I've been playing with the darkness all my life My pain is real but I try to hide it, I try to keep it out of sight Screaming inside but you can’t notice that it’s a neverending fight I don’t know how much more I can take before insanity I’m angry, frustrated and dead tired hope this will end I'm so sick of pretending that everything is fine I've been..... playing with the darkness all my life