I feel happy and sad i feel like a contradiction She hurt me after she promised me that this time was different So now my guards up, i lost my trust hoping i can fix it Should of trust my gut, was hurt by love, so that's why i'm defensive You said you love me, then hurt me, something ain't adding up I cried burying the future that i had planned for us I'm tryna outrun my past, i guess i'm not fast enough It's crazy how these people we meet can just damage us But fuck it, i'll just move along and wipe away my tears I always held my own, i been alone for all these years My biggest fear is wasting time on somebody who does me wrong Who didn't loved me, who was fronting and using me like a pawn Sometimes i feel unloveable, my hearts un-discoverable Hate living in misery, my miserys insufferable Hurt by the ones we love the most, the toughest pill to shallow My heart used to be full but now it's hallow, so no You don't know understand the way i feel You don't understand how much i hate to be me Cuz i break and crumble, feel so alone And my life's a struggle, nobody knows so You don't understand how much i hate to be me You and I, tried to be Held you down, why'd you leave? Why'd you leave? Why'd you leave? Why'd you leave? Why'd you leave?