Hook Half of me just walked away/ And the other half is trying not to stay/ Help me see the hope that's past the rain/ Restore the joy within me and/ Speak to me thru the pain/ Verse 1 This kind of news makes a grown man cry/ The kind of man who has the answers but still ask why/ Why are you down cast ole my soul/ My team expects so much from me, I can't let them know/ That I'm not finding joy and my faith's dying slow/ I gotta go on preaching I gotta go on with the show/ Gotta grace the stage, I gotta make the crowd say oh/ Only problem is I'm not believing the words I flow/ So I look to skies I know the hour has come/ Please remove the thorn cuz one half feels numb/ I got these liars in my head asking where my faiths gone/ I don't feel happy and I don't care to fake for them/ They think me showing pain is the denial of Christ/ Because my tears have been my food all day and night/ Half of me hopes in the Lord and knows I will praise again/ The other half wants to an excuse to wild out in my sin/ They say count it all joy, I got questions about how/ The answers are after death but I got question right now/ I know this to shall pass, whether slow or fast/ I loosen the my grip and for you I grasp/ (2x) Verse 2 He feels he fled temptation to long, so He's tried of fighting/ He no longer finds his marriage exciting/ She's drowning in depression in the rain/ She can't maintain, Lord can you help her ease the pain/ A father gets news that his newborn son has complications/ He has no idea what he's faced with/ He thinks no prom, no college, no athletic fun / No matter his disabilities I'm not ashamed of my son/ Lord I pray that when his days on earth are done/ He'll understand that you and the son are one/ One families prays together for financial needs/ Father feels inadequate cuz he aint worked in weeks/ He been laid off he may loose their car and home/ He thinks what good is a man who cant provide for his own/ He sees the pain in wife and children's eyes/ Contemplating suicide cuz dead men cry/ Lord give him eyes to see past the pain/ That his value in life, it doesn't come with things/ I know this to shall pass, whether slow or fast/ They are loosing their grip I hope for you they grasp/ (2x) Verse 3 I wont let this current pain master me/ What is pain actually/ Lets not address it causally but I don't want to fear pain/ Lets count it all joy its is gain/ Dear life is in my palms & I'm holding on strength is an illusion right along with this calm that I'm on and I'm feeling far gone- Cause half of me is hoping that my eyes won't open in morn' Sorrow is my tongue hear my moans I'm eager for redemption but I know There's more than meets the eye to the thorns in my side So I cry refusing all the lies Pain is my ally when aligned to who you are There's more to my scars so I know there's more to yours I'm resting in your arms I'm resting in the your wrists I'm pressing with a limp pain is purposed through your gift I'm strengthening my grip may this faith in u persist And when this half insists I pray u breathe in me lament Amazing is your grace cause while I'm holding you it seems The truth of the matter is your really holding me