Here’s a thing that isn’t true but it feels like it is I’ve been alone since I was born I googled: Elderly lesbians to cheer myself up But the results were all pornography Duos on the television Sparring with recycled words Children building wooden houses Before they’ve ever met a bird Well I'm still not sure exactly what it means To be living in exile from old dreams Once, I had an idea And I could not be repaired If I could find a word to describe myself entire Then I would know what to wear Standing at the arch of the gate Spitting fruit into the trash Double falls and following trains And bent pennies in the grass Well I'm still not sure exactly what it means To be living in exile from old dreams I can’t see Past the rims Of my glasses In the night sands I can’t see Past the rims Of my glasses