I come up searching in vain for you Here on the loneliest avenue Talking to no one and this table for two I sleep with a phone next to my ear Wondering if I really wish you were here Sparked I suppose by this solo sleeping Traveling down town I am trapped between the one and the nine As funny as it sounds All these choices were supposed to be mine All of this rain is so strange for the season As much as I love you I can't live without constantly bleeding I never sleep but I've got my degree And all of your family's so proud of me I'm perfect on paper but I'm slowly fading I never heal but you pay for it Me and my impotent platelets Tend to the wound But it's weeping, it's weeping Take a walk up town I've got just the shoes for the course My head hangs down, from all this remorse All of our friends who broke up for no reason As much as I love you I can't live without constantly bleeding Don't yell at me, yell at me, in public anymore Cause you're privately, privately killing me, you're killing me to the core Don't yell at me, yell at me, I've heard this all before I will survive and you'll get what you're needing As much as I love you I can't live without constantly bleeding