I don't know why I'm So caught up in covering up the past After all this time I thought I would be over you at last But it kills me at night I was hoping you'd give me a second chance But I'm leaving it up to you Leaving it up to you And there's nothing I can do Cause I walked away when I said I'd say No excuses so I thought I'd make it better as I go If I could go back in time I wouldn't leave you waiting all alone I lay awake late at night I wish I had the courage to saying no I'm leaving it up to you (I wanna go back home and) I'm leaving it up to you (I wanna go back home) After all this time I try to understand this pain No excuses so I find a reason to run away