I said fuck it, I threw up in a bucket I pop another pillie Cause I dont know how to stop it Don't know why I did it Maybe I'm an addict Or maybe I am trying to forget it I used to feel like shit now it's even fuckin' worse Kill me, throw me in a river so nobody fuckin' knows Hang me by the fuckin' neck and throw me in a fuckin' hole Bitch motherfucker I don't wanna feel this anymore I'm so happy Now I'm so happy Now I'm so happy Now I'm so happy I don't know why I still see you when I close my eyes I still feel the pain inside my hearth I still think about you all the time Take me back to a place where I belong To a place where I feel strong Baybe take me back to ecstasy oh baybe I don't know why I still see you when I close my eyes I still feel the pain inside my hearth I still think about you all the time