Pyrexia

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Pyrexia


Unchain my neglect 
compel myself to submission 
sentence me to death 
break down all my self-esteem 
crippled mentally 
my thoughts run black again 
involuntary slaughter 
of all i used to cherish 
social segregations 
have brought me near remission 
falsify illusions of a misguided generation 
abandonment of your world 
sentiments of your family... 
turn their backs in embarrassment 
why should society dictate 
communities crumble in apathy 
sometimes i just want to kill myself 
close myself inside my rage 
take it out on someone else 
therapies for all my pain 
philosophies taught by the enemies 
deep inside is where it hides 
feel it take your every breath 
learn from me i'm already dead 
split myself in two 
try to please each side somehow 
personalities, conflicting crusing me to run 
futile, i stand alone in tension 
the torment of worthlessness compulsively haunts my soul 
manic, each day i deeper blemish 
each day i fall deeper in dispassionate acceptance 
i am void, i am bound 
comatose in thought, bound and gagged 
now i am your pawn - feel free to make me suffer 
now i want resist 
i will return into the black again 
crippled mentally 
i admit to this hell that i live 
disparity's stoic entrapment 
has made me yearn for the end 
pacify objections of a man who was created to bleed 
bleed 
abandonment... 
sentiments your family 
turn their back in embarrassment