I love the way I feel, I'm barely breathing And my head's stuck to the floor I know appearance is deceiving Am i sick if I want more? I'm so frustrated and i think That i'm not getting up this time And if I fake it will you really mind? Time breaks too, won't save you I break too, so watch me now Goddammit, I lost it You lied, I fucking bought it Goddammit, I'm not sick Next time I'll try to let you go I hate the way I feel, I'm scared of breathing and I'm headed for the foor I know adhearence is deceiving And I'm sick of wanting more I lost something back there That I'm not getting back ever again I'm losing grip of what's inside my head And I'm so sick of saying maybe Don't you even doubt me, baby And I'm not ever gonna come clean it means too much to me OH!