I will commit the act that conveys my choice to admit that you're not here today. Dirt clenched in my fist, I face away. I will not submit and put the dirt on your grave. It's been eight weeks, and I'm sorry I haven't come to talk things out with you. Living life without your perfect smile has been difficult to do. So many things I wish I could say. But you can't hear them when you're so far away. I can't accept the fact that you're gone. I will commit the act that conveys my choice to admit that you're not here today. Dirt clenched in my fist, I face away. I will not submit and put the dirt on your grave. Your scent still lingers where I lay my head to sleep. I can almost feel your fingers, but they're just beyond my reach. And I still hear you laughing... at least that's how it seems. And I still see you, but it's only in my dreams. Your ghost, it hovers over me. I need my sanity. I will commit the act that conveys my choice to admit that you're not here today. Dirt clenched in my fist, I face away. I will not submit and put the dirt on your grave.