Perry Farrell

Letters To Xiola

Perry Farrell


How great it would be 
If the sun lost all responsibility 
And left us here 
For me, the days become an excuse 
But I too have found a way of not waking up 
I've been asleep now for days, and days, and days 
I feel as if I'm sitting in an open box car 
And it's heading out of town 
It looks like the inside of a prison cell 
I'm scared 
And excited 
My days and my dreams have never known each other so well 
In the course of my day, I have no idea where I'm going 
But in my dreams, no matter where I end up, as soon as sleep rolls over me, 
I sneak out and head downtown 
My dreams allow me to cheat 
My dreams punish me 
They're so vivid, I see pictures so clear, 
It would be forgery to paint them 
I hear songs as clear as a summer radio 
Songs that pass the time 
As the boxcar heads south 
I woke up in the late afternoon 
On a day like this, I wonder if you age less, because you didn't use all of it 
You see, if that's so, you should be able to live twice as long 
As anyone else, just by waking up at four o'clock in the afternoon 
Turn on the late-afternoon TV 
There's all the career school commercials, 
Drug addict and alcohol rehabilitation commercials 
And I think to myself, 
Gee, I'd like to have a drink and get high 
Then the phone rings 
But I don't answer it, cause I don't care who it is 
I don't got anything I want to talk about 
I remember when you used to call 
Remember? 
You'd always say, 
Oh, we're going to famous 
That's how you always end the conversation 
An inspirational message 
It was okay between the two of us, it was funny you know, but 
Inspirational messages always seem the most possible 
When you're totally wasted 
What do I need? 
What is going to bring me around? 
It's not listening to ex-drug addicts 
I know for a fact all drug addicts are liars 
I get off on athletes when they start getting all inspirational 
Then they gotta go and mention Jesus and ruin it 
Weight loss commercials are pretty good, you know 
Some forty-year old lady who's lost eighty-five pounds 
And I look at her, and I think, 
She could not possibly have more guts than I do 
Books 
The Bible's never really done it for me 
Being an extremist, I've always thought it was just too popular 
There's a paper in Los Angeles called the Recycler 
The Recycler has given me a lot of inspiration 
I remember when I first moved here, and the determination that I had 
To get a job, and find a band 
Get an apartment 
You know, if only I had a cool apartment 
I'll save every penny and I'll buy myself some equipment 
Always just two or three steps behind happiness 
It's too bad they don't do centerfolds or cover stories 
I'd kinda like to be on the cover of the Recycler 
I had no friends at the time 
All my friends now are drug addicts 
I don't believe I would ever wish that I had no friends 
You never met Bernice or Alfred 
They're a couple that have been through thick and are now very thin 
Bernice is usually in a better mood than I am when I see her 
She lives on the street 
She's an adorable Mexican girl 
It seems like, if you were to take her home and scrub her up, 
She'd probably start singing and become America's sweetheart 
Alfred sits on the curb and reads 
He reads more than I do 
I like to believe it's because he's got more time 
Last dream I had, I drove downtown, and I just stayed there 
Hung out with Alfred 
We both sat on the curb, talking all sour over current events 
While Bernice and Casey hustled up the business 
Yeah, adding up credit with Kiko 
It amazes me how little difference there is between me and Alfred 
And Bernice and Casey 
As far as I can see, the only difference is that, 
Right now, we're making our rent 
I remember something about a boxcar 
Inside of it, there was something on the wall 
Bernice loves Alfred 
Hey, I got another one for you 
All men are created with equal time 
Father Time has got to be the richest make-believe individual 
That never lived 
A man that knows what to do with his time 
Is a man, I guess, that's up in the front of the line 
In the course of the day, a man can make three phone calls, 
And make three thousand dollars 
Another man can curl up his bicep for three hours, 
And he can puff up his arm three inches 
And another man can stand on the corner, chasing down cars for three hours, 
And end up with three spoons' credit with Kiko 
Me, I spend days on end trying to come up with a three-minute poem 
That's gonna mean something to somebody 
And I've never been satisfied 
Maybe I should try scrubbing up Bernice