It doesn't feel too much like Christmas Eve here The town is covered up in shades of gray I've tried a thousand times, but I can't leave here Though all my former friends have gone away All my plans here at my feet Now just snowflakes in the street Trampled by the giants overhead Down below me, that ol' river's flowin' Maybe I'd be better off dead If there's an angel watchin', then he's laughin' Gettin' quite a kick from my despair 'Cause angels wouldn't let this crap all happen That's why I'm pretty sure he isn't there All it ever takes Is just one or two mistakes It all unravels from a single thread Now I'm drunk and alone, and that river's flowin' Maybe, just maybe Even though I'd miss you, baby Maybe I'd be better off dead