Tom: D F#m G D In - fected youth F#m G D Grow spokesmen of gray F#m G D In - fected youth F#m G D Grow spokesmen of gray [Verse 1] D She loved him so and he left A He said he wished her to die Bm And she cried; closer, still F#m Em To whatever may come of heartbreak [Verse 2] D Then she found herself sea sick, lost in an ocean A Without her pharmacy fisherman Bm And she found it was too hard to stand up on her own F#m Em And she wished, she wished, she wished she could die [Breakdown] Em G Never mind Em The growing weight G In what she can't stomach G G Bm A x4 [Verse 3] G Bm A G Left in the womb all alone, she lost that baby on her own Bm A G She just laid still Bm A G Left in the womb all alone, she lost that baby on her own Bm A She became still [Verse 4] G Bm After that she never felt right A G She just laid still G Bm Never told anyone about the child A G She just stayed still [Verse 5] G She told me Bm D A Asus4 And I cried, still G And I died Bm D Dsus4 I died a small bit, I died [Verse 6] G Bm And now I think of it all the time D A Asus4 G Bm D Dsus4 Would it be better, would it be nicer than me G Bm D I hope that I'm not right, I can't face that kind of life G Bm D Shadowed by someone never alive [Verse 7] G But how could she love me Bm D After her heart was broken in two G How could she be proud Bm D After her heart was taken from her [Breakdown] D Em I wonder about my sibling A G D Em If heaven has a place for her A G But god you work so strangely D Em You take smiles so quickly A G So quietly [Bridge] D A blade can cut so quickly Bm But my legs won't die so quietly G I don't want to keep going G I've got to keep going G I've got to keep going G I've got to keep going D G If not for my mother D G Then for the one we've lost D G If not for my mother D G Then for the one we've lost D G If not for my mother D G Then for the one we've lost D G If not for my mother D G Then for the one we've lost D G D G x2 G [Chorus] D D Still, a better world D A nicer world D How can I redeem myself Bm For my failure Bm I'll never know her Bm She was never here D I am failing Bm To live on for myself G I'm sorry Bm I love you D I'm sorry Bm I didn't say it enough G You could've asked Gmaj7 Bm Why I am alive D Why, why, why am I alive? G Why am I alive? D Why am I alive?