Love, Lately I've been wondering Why your past hurts me so much And why I'm not who I want to be And why my sanity is lost I always watched you in your underworld Where mystic moments filled the air Lately I've been wondering Why I'm still not there A lizard king can do anything What about the king of rain? Forever victim of pathetic past? Must he always feel ashamed? For his years of silent misery Must he always leave a stain? Lately I've been wondering…… I'm letting you down Playing the clown Feeling so hollow I'm letting you down Playing the clown Feeling so hollow I know one day you'll see Everything I touch turns to grey I know one day you'll hate me Trying to break me Silently hoping I'll die…..