New Model Army

Fireworks Night

New Model Army


All the mistakes that I have made 
All the things I should have seen but I looked away 
All the things we should have shared that we kept to ourselves 
All the things that we shared we should have kept to ourselves 
And I guess it's the modern way - the phone call that comes 
flying out of a blue autumn day and suddenly everything 
goes so and quiet and soon everyone seems to be alone 
with their own thoughts And now it's as if I'm standing 
beneath a torrent of falling water, feeling things I don't 
want to feel, remembering things I don't want to remember 
But we said what we said and we made what we made 

And so I say the things I have learned to say 
Thankful for words that can be used 
We were both like waves not able to break 
Rolling and turning and turning and rolling 
But still not able to break 

And I'm numb, I'm numb like when you've been driving 
so fast for so long that it feels as if you're hardly 
moving at all, my body rigid with tension, my sould all 
wound up like a twisted ttree, the way we used to be when 
we sang of passion and justice and faith was easy and 
celebrated in a ritual of curling smoke, arms all raised up 
towards the lights… 
And we said what we said but we made what we made 
And so by now you'll be further on that I ever went; and is 
it still painless? Do you get to float and look down and do   
all of that? Tonight would be as good a night as any.. 
you'll see the city alive like a great resting animal 
lying in the lea of the hills and the moorland and 
breathing little patterus of fire out into the cold dark 
coming of winter. And I'm warming my back against   
the heat of a bonfire - like the ones you so loved so build 
and I'm thinking about it all - and I'm sorry and Im not sorry. 
Our time was made up of confused emotiongs and little 
whirlwinds and all that stuff we coulnd't really talk about 
but most of all it was sealed in sacred moments like these 
And then it was gone…