I've been in the brown Shutting systems down Building up the borders all around Digging in the dirt, older than my shirt Dwelling in a world of loss and hurt But something's cutting me Like a guillotine Severing my whole identity And it won't let me rest Am I haunted? Am I blessed? My spirit and my soul dividing Will you tell me what this life's meant to be 'Cause I've been living inside this dark melody The spirit and the seed Divided by their need And father should be first in line to bleed And I don't understand I lived to hate the man And I've takin' all that I can stand But there within my heart When love was the spark I loved him long before he broke my heart Father tell me how What should I do now? My spirit and my soul are crying Will you tell me what this life's meant to be? 'Cause I've been broken inside this dark melody