Trauma changes, rearranges Takes the man I was and breaks him Walls come up All I am is numb and jaded Ego splits, my soul deflated Walls come up These walls come up All I ever wanted was to be loved by somebody But the man I used to be is so far gone Circling through memories All this trauma gets me trembling No, I can't let you in, it's been too long I'd rather feel nothing at all Than have to deal with all the pain inside my heart When she died I swore I'd never love again And it's been years, but I'm still calloused up like this All I ever wanted was to be loved by somebody But the man I used to be is so far gone Circling through memories All this trauma gets me trembling No, I can't let you in, it's been too long The man I used to be is dead and gone I never feel alive 'Cause fear controls my life I try to break this bind But all these ghosts come with their knives Don't wanna live this way Afraid of everything This trauma's taken me I'm falling in the deep All I ever wanted was to be loved by somebody But the man I used to be is so far gone Circling through memories All this trauma gets me trembling No, I can't let you in, it's been too long The man I used to be is dead and gone The man I used to be is dead and gone