Spectator of Misery

I've never felt as low as I feel tonight 
suicide if I choose is just an easy way out 

so I fight the good fight prolong what I call life 
avoid my dieing by the hand that feels 

its hard to live with eternal pain 
unless your in the crowd 

for me I feel it everyday and night 
and don't have the option to look away 

a spectator of misery is what you are 
pain and misery with which you yield 

for the final chapter you sit and wait 
exhumed in thought of a breathless end