I've never felt as low as I feel tonight suicide if I choose is just an easy way out so I fight the good fight prolong what I call life avoid my dieing by the hand that feels its hard to live with eternal pain unless your in the crowd for me I feel it everyday and night and don't have the option to look away a spectator of misery is what you are pain and misery with which you yield for the final chapter you sit and wait exhumed in thought of a breathless end