I won't stop searching till I find it Lost like memories when I was a kid Is it in crystals or a sound bath Or the things I dreamt up but I never did I've looked all over, seeing double Do I need a single eye I need a mail order guru like those mail order brides They say It's all in meditation But when I sit still, I'm afraid what I'll find Am I gonna get better Did I drink the Kool-Aid Am I looking in all the wrong places Is my body just space I got that American Spirit It's searching for what I can't find I'm looking in holy rivers I pray that she'll show me a sign If I let go of holding tightly Will I see Jesus in a stranger tonight? The devil hides in Coca Cola But if I'm high will I be more qualified? Cause in my Elvis Presley record I found the light And my books say I'm a bad ass for just $12. 99 Maybe I'll trace it to my family But maybe some things, should be buried alive I'm giving up I surrender to you I'm giving up I surrender to you