Medicated Kisses

Blood Letting

Medicated Kisses


i've exhausted my pen 
just to pinpoint a where and when this 
all began 
but all i can see 
is where my fingers did touch these keys 
a mass of steel that brings 
angels with beautiful wings 
wrapped around me as they sang 
"i will protect the infected in all you see" 

first i could taste the poison in my tongue 
spread to my lips with every word i spoke 
inhaled and exhaled through my lungs 
we're incubating and assisting a virus 
here in the crow's feet and cracks of my face 
we found a place to hide and keep my secrets safe away 

while years passed by 
and days passed on 
light and heat reflected off of me 
to burn and melt shapes of who i used to be 
but don't get caught 
in what you saw 
lesser men have died from what was growing inside 
my fate i accepted i could not change 
but no hospital 
would have me 
was this psychosymatic with no symptoms to diagnose? 

alas i knew what was there all along 
i could feel my insides burning 
when my eyelids fluttered and my sweaty palms did stutter 
locked all the doors and hid under my sheets from the cracks of these streets that were beckoning me 
i would stare into the back of my eyelids 
the audience is listening so preach on brother preach 
we can sleep forever now or wake up just to dream 
all these voices told me that i was different i didn't wanna be 
but when i look into my reflection now i'm loving what i see 
i'm the miracle in the mirror! i'm the miracle in the mirror! 

see if god can't judge me 
neither can you 
i was sent on a mission for the evil things i do 

when all else fails 
in case of emergency 
take two lives and don't call anyone in the morning 
apologies and misunderstandings could shed light on a fatal night 
i lost myself when i lost that will to fight 

So how can we fix what has been broken when the pieces remain unnamed 
with two hands to my face i will wash the blame away 
for i got caught 
in what i saw 
the sky opened up and i gave my soul away 
the sun pierced my flesh and i'd rather just erase the pain away