Shove yourself in a smaller space Lift your head when you're saying grace Hide away from everybody else I've always been scared of being helped So I thought I could do it on my own Take in the smell of the salty rain Take one more sip of your white champagne Listen to everyone talk about everyone And you just sit there pretend like you're having fun I'm a fucked up child growing up too fast In the city of dreams Chasing in black With cocaine in my hair and some buds out back Pretending to love me, pretending to love me Hop into a crowded train (train, train, train, train) And take it to an unknown place (place, place, place) I'm terrified of calling him but he doesn't answer anyway so I try And do it on my own (my own, own, own) The smell of smoke in the city lights (lights, lights, lights, lights) The lights are off but they seem bright (bright, bright, bright) I hear the voices you put in my head (my head, head, head) They sing me to sleep every night before bed I'm a fucked up child growing up too fast In the city of dreams Chasing in black With cocaine in my hair and some buds out back Pretending to love me, pretending to love me I'm a fucked up child growing up too fast In the city of dreams Chasing in black With cocaine in my hair and some buds out back Pretending to love me, pretending to love me