Got a hole in my heart that I tried to fill
With the money and the girls and the molly pill
I called my mom up yesterday
Nothing's really wrong, but I'm not okay
And it rushes in, the memories
The sad thoughts, and everything
I look around and suddenly
I almost fade away
Singin' cross my heart, I don't hope to die
2018, almost lost my mind
Tell my mother that I'll be fine
Doing my best to stay alive, 'live, alive, alive
Yeah, yeah
I put a smile on, but I'm not okay
People start to worry when I sleep for days
I'm dressed to kill, but I'm dyin' inside
When I was a little boy, I dreamed of this life
Now I'm all grown up, got kids of my own
Try to show them love that I did not know
My father was an addict and so am I
Doin' everything just to stay alive
It rushes in, the medicine
The chemicals, and imbalances
I look around and suddenly
I threw them all away
Singin' cross my heart, I don't hope to die
2018, almost lost my life
Tell my brother that I'll be fine
Doin' my best to stay alive, alive (stay alive), alive
Doin' my best to stay alive, alive (stay alive), alive
Doin' my best to stay alive
Cross my heart
Tell my mother
Doin' my best to stay a
2018, almost lost my life
Doin' my best
Doin' my best to stay alive
