I have succumb to the poison around me I am driven to ignore the despair Keep searching for a lesson A choice I never question Pushed into a state of disrepair The scars will never fade Till I’m in my grave I’m reaching out to you But I’m clutching at smoke Getting deeper in this hole The fight inside was never fair Now nothing can destroy me This is the ecstasy that I feel When it’s my turn I’m starting to forget Instant doubt, creeping regret What can I do to make this go away I feel the misery eating at me every day I’m fading in, bleeding out, dragging myself down How many times can I make this mistake I can feel myself slipping away Tired eyes, early graves From the top of the world To the bottom of the barrel Eating me away from the inside A test of my sanity I know in the end what will be, will be I know in the end what will be, will be A test of a my sanity What doesn’t destroy you Will make you wish that it did Inflicted, inflicted on myself Inflicted, inflicted on myself From the top of the world To the bottom of the barrel Eating me away from the inside A test of my sanity I know in the end what will be, will be I know in the end what will be, will be A test of a my sanity Searching for the fix Another stone in the wall of life So when the cracks appear Will you be there when it all comes crashing down Still alone Still searching for my soul No one to blame but my self control Still alone Still searching for my soul No one to blame but my self control Another slave to satisfaction Was it all really fucking worth it?