I don’t wanna fall in love And fall apart again I don't know if I’m ok enough so I keep taking medicine To give my head a rest But what did I expect I said I’d give him everything but everything meant nothing But I still stayed so I could feel I’m holding on to something And I feel like a burnout Lie and say that I’m better on my own now Ok alright I’m starting to feel nothing when I lay awake at night Ok alright I’ll fool myself with every other lie I still think of every word you said to me Trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine I swear to fucking God that one day you’ll be dead to me But right now just to hear your voice I swear that I’d do anything I don’t wanna fall in love And fall apart again I don't know if I’m ok enough so I keep taking medicine To give my head a rest But what did I expect