Starting off the day With a lot inside my mind The concept of loneliness redefined Everyday is the same Hiding insecurities And faking my reality I'm afraid of losing control I'm always afraid now Believe me when I say that I try so hard And it still not enough to make me surface I'm drowning in my thoughts No, it's not a joke and it's not on purpose Ending off the day I rest my heavy head The constant feel of dread I just want to sleep To rest my heavy soul Where there was a heart now lies a hole Believe me when I say that I try so hard And it still not enough to make me surface I'm drowning in my thoughts No, it's not a joke and it's not on purpose There's just a lot inside my mind I don't want to feel it I don't want to see it I don't want to taste it I don't want to hate me