I smoked my first cigarette, my cowboy killer With a few close friends, so cold, my hands went numb One girl, she talked about her boyfriend like a God He had a dirty mouth, and we all ate it up And there's someone new I been seein' That shows me what I been missin' I never had that high school love But this tastes like sophomore year to me Got me learnin' all the words to his favorite songs But, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark I avoid the pain and say: This is just for fun Hm, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark But what if I surrendered to the Sun? And I didn't run, run, run, run, run I didn't run, run, run, run, run The woods back in my hometown And Friday night blockbuster countdowns How I'd choose the long way home to pass the beach But wish you'd ask that kind of question The kind that digs for somethin' hidden But I'm not sure you'd like to know that side of me Then you text me from a nightclub, you're out tonight like I was Did you find a new plus one? Young achilles, you got options Maybe I should just fuck off And let go (go, go, go, go) of the wheel for once But, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark I avoid the pain and say: This is just for fun Hm, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark But what if I surrendered to the Sun? And I didn't run, run, run, run, run I didn't run, run, run, run, run And I didn't run, run, run, run, run (didn't run) I didn't run, run, run, run, run (oh-ah) The ex who says you'd still get married I said I loved him, I fuckin' lied Now I'm convinced you're my personal karma Sent here to right my wrongs from that cruel, selfish night