It's been a while since I heard from you And I know I was the one who chose that It's just that you got me so confused 'Cause I thought you were the best I ever had Even your mom texted me the other day Saying I should come over for a coffee And I bet if your dog could talk Would ask about me too And when you ask how I've been I know I tend to hide it 'Cause I know you know how I've been I wonder don't you mind it? 'Cause I've been avoiding places I know you may go I know that every heart heals And I should take it slow But my anxiety keeps saying no You are the best thing I wish I still had And I just get so mad 'Cause it just hurts so bad You are the best thing I wish I still had And I just get so mad 'Cause it just hurts so bad Don't get me wrong, I still wish you the best I just don't know how I'd be if I saw you next To that girl, oh no I miss calling you love, feeling your love So hard to see my babe saying that wasn't enough It was so hard when I saw you had gone To the place I wanted to take you to, with her And when you ask how I've been I wish I could say That I'd be better If you had chosen to stay 'Cause I've been avoiding places I know you may go I know that every heart heals And I should take it slow But my anxiety keeps saying no You are the best thing I wish I still had And I just get so mad 'Cause it just hurts so bad You are the best thing I wish I still had And I just get so mad 'Cause it just hurts so bad 'Cause I've been avoiding places I know you may go I know that every heart heals And I should take it slow But my anxiety keeps saying no You are the best thing (The best thing) I wish I still had (I wish I still had you) And I just get so mad 'Cause it just hurts so bad (So bad, so bad) You are the best thing (The best thing) I wish I still had (I wish I still had you) And I just get so mad 'Cause it just hurts so bad I've been avoiding those places But in the middle of those faces I keep looking for yours I keep looking for yours And I still go I hope they don't know (hope they don't know) But I was kinda hoping you would show up