I no longer know what's real anymore In the back of my mind I have opened the door That leads to the past & the love we once shared I keep asking myself what am I doing there (Chorus:) What am I doing there holding you tight Taking down your hair lying close by your side Making believe that you still care My new life is here what am I doing there I don't get much rest with the secrets I keep And I'm afraid that some night oh I'll talk in my sleep How could I explain to the one lying here She's loving me now what am I doing there (Repeat chorus) My new life is here what am I doing there