Yeah, feel like obsessing with pretentiousness ahead of ego
While they follow my shadow, and go wherever he go
Scanning patterns, like they'd even know the shit that we know
Focus on my dinero like I was in casino yeah, a star born, in raw form
Can open up the pages you fought for, the wrong war
Can't say how long I've waited on that single call for
Flip a brick, yeah I get it, get it, we all poor
Yeah, and what's my girl doing?
Well technically she ain't my girl
But still I heard cupid I walk with arrows in my chest
Until my urn ruined a living heart attack, I guess I gotta burn through it
But it's oh
It's okay, right? I still have a chance?
I feel like I would benefit a little bit to advance just a little kid
Up in the middlemen, just don't get rid of
Him, I think I just need closure, give me one more dance
I need that
Unconditional love, from someone of above
Yeah, you got a man, I'm like fuck love
To cover up the empty pages, and spaces
You left up in my heart I gotta see this shit end, to know where I can start
Name
I can't stop thinking bout how I'ma never be the same
It's like the shit up in my stomach boutta rearrange
I shoulda locked you down before, it's only me to blame
But I'ma keep all my promises, in my pocket
I always come through, I should fly away in my rocket
So maybe I could find a peace of mind that I could be
Behind
And let you live your life, and redesign
The part of me behind it's prolly for the best, I'm working on my honesty
I swore to God I'll be the biggest
So I gotta be but it's a struggle, they don't know what's going into this
They sit behind the picket fence, no shit I don't want
Different friends
Intermission
Why everybody looking so see through?
Yeah, and goddamn, I miss the old me
Too I got that difficulty talking 'bout my feelings, so I'm
Writing em
So no one else can judge me when they staring, wishing I
Was them yeah, and fuck, I wanna drop out
Because this shit ain't really working, what if I stop now?
I got 2 years of this shit under my belt, like that
I know if I decide to quit, I'll prolly run right back
And get a
Big diploma, fake a smile on graduation
Pretend I'm really happy, but that smile is slowly fading
I'm blessed to have the opportunity that I was taking
But I'm running out of patience, fuck it, I
Can barely take it and I don't care if no one hear this or relates to me
I did this for myself, so I can show what I was made to
Be
My preconceptions be the best of my worst some days
I can't define the line between a blessing and
Curse, damn
So let me take a little time to myself
I'm so confused, I can't decide if I'm well
The one I love is busy with another person
Got no money I've been earning, like I'm driving in hell but it's
Okay, 'cause these are first world problems
I got no reason to bitch, unless the third world got
Em I'm just in a really shitty situation in my life
I don't know what the fuck to do, but I know it'll be alright
But this shit taking forever, I'm like what's the reason?
I'm learning shit that don't apply while I've been fucking
Bleeding
And when I'm looking out the window I see nothing scenic
I see kids carrying books that they ain't fucking reading
Yeah, on the bright side, I'm out my comfort zone
But people hit me up, when I just wanna be a-fucking-lone
I'm sorry, this shit ain't getting me where I want to go
I think I'm going crazy, but there ain't no way I'm coming home
