Jandek

I Need Your Life

Jandek


I been through your nursery rhyme
I been through your nursery rhyme 
I took all your nickels and dimes 
But you left me cold 
You wouldn't let me hold 
On longer than it took to go 
I don't care if I die 
I don't even care if I'm in a wheelchair 
Or in a bed 
Unable to move 
For all I know 
It's better than what I did today 
You lead me on 
You bring me up 
And then you take away my floor 
I'm standing 
I'm trying to stand 
Somehow you push me down 
You let me up and have me on a shoulder 
Tell me go on go ahead on 
And then you push me down 
Down 
But I know, I know you want to let me up 
Another time 
And I don't know why 
Sometimes I think maybe 
You let me up just to push me down 
You let me feel good 
Just to let me feel bad 
And it was OK 
It was so OK 
But now I'm slippin 
You gave me one thing 
You took away two 
I don't know 
Oh, what you're trying to do 
Am I going down the wrong road 
Am I doing the wrong thing 
Please let me know 
Please tell me loud 
I want to know 
I'm asking please 
Let me know 
Let me know the right way 
Oh, is there a right way 
And I know 
Yes I know 
That there's a wrong way 
I saw today 
But you showed me before 
That I can lose 
All the faith I had 
That I can be 
So small 
That I can lose 
All I got 
All my faith 
All my hope 
Where does it go 
And you can't tell me any little thing 
Because I feel 
I feel 
So bad 
You can be happy 
You can laugh laugh laugh 
But I take a look 
I see the Chinese 
I see the Japanese 
They're laughing and joking 
Having a good time 
I see people in the paper 
I see the models 
Oh what a person 
I see them walking down the street 
They look so good 
But I can't have it 
I'm locked up 
I'm inside this thing 
And I can't 
Oh no I cant 
I can't get out 
I can't take what I want 
I can see it 
Oh I can see it 
But it's not mine 
You build me up 
You show me these things 
You push me down 
You say forget it 
You can't have anything 
You just stay down 
I say let me up 
Please let me up 
You gotta let me up 
You pushed me down 
Down on the ground 
I can't be here 
I can't be here 
Please make a change 
Help me live 
I want to give 
I want to do 
I want to have your life 
I want to have your life 
Give me your life 
Let me up 
I know you can let me up 
You don't have to keep me down 
You don't have to 
You don't have to 
You don't have to keep me down 
Keep these things 
Away from me 
These bad things 
Away from me 
I wanna be right 
I'm willing to live a routine 
I'm willing to exercise my day 
I'm willing to give up 
Hah, I'm willing 
Oh I'm willing 
You've got to let me up 
You know I'll do anything but 
Don't push me down 
Don't push me down 
You make me wonder 
What should I do 
Should I come out 
Yeah, should I leave this thing 
I can do it 
I can do it 
Is that what you want 
I don't think so 
But you can change my mind 
You can change my mind 
You can have me 
Have all of me 
All but, let me up 
Let me up 
Give me a chance 
Don't push me down 
Don't push me down 
And you know I 
I know, I cant ever 
Push you down 
I can't ever 
Let you up 
You got it all 
You got it all 
Give me some 
Give me some of your life 
I want your life 
I want your life 
I'm willing to pay 
Pay the price 
Out of my life 
Take what it costs 
You got it all 
You always had it all 
So take it all 
You know you got it 
Yeah I'll live on 
I'll live on 
And I see the Chinese 
I see the beautiful people 
I want them 
But I don't need them 
I don't need them 
You know what I need 
I need you 
Give me your life 
Give me your life 
Take mine 
Take my life 
You got it 
It's always been yours 
Always been yours 
You got my life 
You got it 
Give me yours 
Give me your life 
Give me your life 
Give me your life 
I need your life 
I need your life 
I need your life 
So what do I do 
Just what do I do 
You' better show me 
Show me 
Don't push me down 
Don't push me down 
Yeah, yeah I know 
You can push me down 
You can push me down 
You can crush me 
You can snuff me out 
I don't care 
I don't care if I die 
I don't care if I'm in a wheelchair 
I don't care if I'm in a bed 
And I can't even move 
Hey, would it be worse than today 
You can pick me up 
Please pick me up 
Oh please 
Pick me up 
Please 
Oh please 
Pick me up 
You can pick me up 
Don't push me down 
Don't push me down 
I feel bad 
I feel bad 
I been here before 
I've had your nursery rhymes 
I've had your nickels and dimes 
I had your good times 
I had your lovely people 
All over me 
I liked it 
Now they're all gone 
Now I'm alone 
But you got me still 
Yeah you got me still 
You let me move around 
But you got me still 
And you know it 
And you let me up 
But then you go and push me down 
And you hurt me 
And times you hurt me bad 
And I've got one fear 
In my life 
And that fear is that I'm slippin' 
I'm slipping 
And I see it 
And I feel it 
And I know it 
And I know, it doesn't have to be this way 
Tell me what I'm doing wrong 
Tell me 
Tell me what I'm doing wrong 
Because I want to be right 
I want to be good 
I don't want to be bad 
I know some people like to be bad 
And they sing about being bad 
And they say I'm bad 
You know, I want to be good 
I want to be right 
I want to be good and right 
I don't want to have to fight and lose 
Please let me win 
Let me win this war 
I'm on your side 
I'm on your side 
What else I gonna do 
You push me down 
You let me up 
I don't want to be down 
I don't want to be down 
Please 
Please 
Let me up 
Let me win 
Let me get this war taken care of 
I'll be on your side 
Where else am I gonna be 
Uhh, I love you 
I surely do 
If you want me down 
I'll be on the ground 
But let me feel 
Like I'm not losing ground 
Let me win 
Let me be on top somehow some way 
I don't need to be conventional 
Let me up 
Let me up 
Oh please let me up 
You know it's been so long 
It's been so long 
I'm trying to remember 
It's not easy 
I see myself slipping 
I don't want to slip 
Let me up 
Let me up 
I need to be up 
I need to be right 
I'm willing to work 
Ah, work, work 
I'm willing to work 
I love you 
I love you 
Ahh, I love you 
I love you 
Please let me win 
Let me win 
Somehow let me win 
I need to win 
Let's not have any misunderstanding 
I need to win 
I'm asking, please don't push me down 
I need to win your love 
And I'll do anything 
I don't know if I'm hurting myself 
I surely hope not 
But I feel like I may be slipping 
I want some help 
So I don't have to go down 
Cause I see the Chinese and the Japanese 
Laughing, talking, acting just like animals 
Why can't I be like an animal 
Take care of myself the right way 
Sure would be good nice 
Sure 
Let me ask you 
Another time 
Treating me right 
Treating me right 
I got some kind of feeling I'm not being treated right 
I don't know if I'm not treating myself right 
Or you're not treating me right 
But I'm slipping 
And I don't want to be slipping 
I want to move on 
I want to create 
I want to be ahead 
I want to win 
I want to love 
I want to feel like I'm moving and doing things right 
But oh I don't feel too good about it 
Why not 
Why don't I feel good 
Hey I don't know about other people 
I don't know what they do 
I don't know if they feel right 
Sometimes they look like they feel just fine and I don't know